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The Chrysalis

I walked away because I couldn't sit and watch you love someone else.
At first I thought you expected me to support you like a cheer leader.
But in the end I realize that you were just too kind to ask me to leave.
I'm left to be all by myself just like I've been for so long in my life.

Just so you know what I'm talking about people, she's an online cam girl.
And the story is not as pathetically foolish as it may appear.
But going into details is not my story to tell. She taught me that one.
You see, we have taught and instilled many things into each others psyche.

In todays world of the internet, it's completely possible to fall in love online.
The problem lies with that one way window because I don't cam to cam.
There are other issues that are involved, but they entail me telling you all
something about me that I have spent 61 years trying to keep hidden.
From others, and for a long time, myself. But, you see, this girl is a male to 
female transsexual. And I am also male to female transsexual. I am presently on hormones to transition. 

I don't know what some of you will think about this. I know there are a few
on this site who may be a bit shocked. But the basic reason I am telling this on here is that I just can't bear to be perceived anymore as something I'm not. I know many of my poems on here have that male sense to them, but also with a lot of sadness and loneliness and pain. I have only won one contest on here years ago. And it was titled He said She said. Something about that speaks volumes I think. If you read it you'll understand what I mean. I am going to post this because essentially I still retain my essential anonymity here. 

But now I will be able to write from that true place in my soul and hopefully what I write will be worth reading. If there are those of you who have a hard time with wrapping your mind around transgenderism. I hope you don't just feel free to comment in derisive ways. I think I've said what I wanted to say and I hope you can be welcoming to Leslie as you were Robert. <3 Thank you for reading.

Copyright © | Year Posted 2019




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Date: 7/30/2019 10:37:00 AM
Leslie, I love the openness and honesty of this write. I'm glad you were able to write from the depths of your soul. You seem to me to be a very kind person, and that is what is most important, to me. Keep writing, friend.
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Leslie Albright
Date: 7/30/2019 11:02:00 AM
Thank you so much Becca. <3 :)
Date: 7/3/2019 11:44:00 AM
Leslie - I will be as supportive of you as you've always been to me. I hope your changes will bring you some peace and happiness. Bravo to you for your courage in letting the whole PoetrySoup family know about this. I think you may be surprised by the positivity you'll get from many of us here...(by the way, I hope that you won't abandon your rhyming with your new name! I would miss that too much...
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Leslie Albright
Date: 7/3/2019 11:50:00 AM
Thank You ilene, I just now changed my poetrysoup name to Leslie Albright. So, :) that's who you'll have to look up if you want to read me. And don't worry about me not rhyming anymore. If I write something, it just rhymes. :) It's like I can't express myself if I don't. Except for now and the Chrysalis. :) Thanks again. Love Leslie.
Date: 7/3/2019 10:11:00 AM
OH WOW, how did I ever miss this one?? Now I am personal friends with two transgenders here at Soup!!! I have no problem with it at all, Robert. (er, Leslie, how will I remember that??) Back to Soupmail.
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Date: 4/29/2019 3:00:00 AM
Leslie, this was a wonderful write! I am happy to know you and appreciate the honesty and courage you are clearly showing by living your truth and showing your soul. Bravo!
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