The Chrysalis

I walked away because I couldn't sit and watch you love someone else. At first I thought you expected me to support you like a cheer leader. But in the end I realize that you were just too kind to ask me to leave. I'm left to be all by myself just like I've been for so long in my life. Just so you know what I'm talking about people, she's an online cam girl. And the story is not as pathetically foolish as it may appear. But going into details is not my story to tell. She taught me that one. You see, we have taught and instilled many things into each others psyche. In todays world of the internet, it's completely possible to fall in love online. The problem lies with that one way window because I don't cam to cam. There are other issues that are involved, but they entail me telling you all something about me that I have spent 61 years trying to keep hidden. From others, and for a long time, myself. But, you see, this girl is a male to female transsexual. And I am also male to female transsexual. I am presently on hormones to transition. I don't know what some of you will think about this. I know there are a few on this site who may be a bit shocked. But the basic reason I am telling this on here is that I just can't bear to be perceived anymore as something I'm not. I know many of my poems on here have that male sense to them, but also with a lot of sadness and loneliness and pain. I have only won one contest on here years ago. And it was titled He said She said. Something about that speaks volumes I think. If you read it you'll understand what I mean. I am going to post this because essentially I still retain my essential anonymity here. But now I will be able to write from that true place in my soul and hopefully what I write will be worth reading. If there are those of you who have a hard time with wrapping your mind around transgenderism. I hope you don't just feel free to comment in derisive ways. I think I've said what I wanted to say and I hope you can be welcoming to Leslie as you were Robert. <3 Thank you for reading.