The Beauty In Futility

Futility my heart breathes its last breath Embraces its own death Ready to be reborn and made anew Can’t live a lie Refuse to “do” and I’ll DIE.... Focus now on why I’ll live And never touch the sky. I have to forget you I have to reject you But I will never love anyone like I loved you..... I heard you whisper and you never knew it I wiped the tears from your eyes But you couldn’t feel it You’re lost and you’ll never find you And neither will I And I’m so sorry-- but I’m NOT. I'll attempt to reset Try to forget But you know, I never will. Be my dirty little secret My very worst-kept secret Sweet, smooth, beautiful poison My infernal and endless attraction towards complete and utter self-destruction I fell in love with the devil And it will take one heck of an angel To save me from the likes of you.... My addiction my confusion my nightmare my dream never to come true Oh, I’ll never forget the times we never shared I’ll never forget how you were never there Always me, the stars, and tears And I ask you, what kind of life is THAT? I have to face the facts I don’t know what happens now but it happens without you. The stains will always be there the scars will never fade But the memory of you---- it HAS to. I could carry the torch forever But it would only consume me I can’t cry another tear for you Or I’ll dry up completely It doesn’t affect you and you never deserved me You’ll go on with your life, too All, all alone Because you’ll only ever be in love with you.