The Addict

Crush up the pill Lay it out in a line You don't have to do this This is your first time Right up your nose Straight to your brain Forget all the sadness Numb all the pain At first it's just fun Every now and again Escaping for an evening Getting high with your friends Soon enough it's not fun It becomes a thing of need Now you've become trapped It's a beast you must feed You'll lie and you'll steal So you can get high Then you'll hate what you've become You'll wish you could die You'll lay in the dark You'll know you're a mess You may as well get high You're completely hopeless What once felt like Heaven Is now your Hell What you thought had you on top of the world Just had you so high you didn't realize you fell You wallow and hate yourself You swear that you'll quit Well, you'll cut back... At least a little bit.. But you don't cut back You use more and more You'll do just about anything For one single score You've gotten to the point That you can't get enough You've lost all your friends You've sold all your stuff You're just an empty version Of what used to be you You pretend that it's not But you know that it's true Now all that matters Is that next bag of dope You've given up on yourself You've lost all your hope You forgot where you started Can't remember where you came from You're so lost and scared You can only see the monster you've become You need to hit bottom Before you can climb to the top When you've finally hit bottom You'll know it has to stop It's you or the drugs You can't both go on As hard as it is You HAVE to be strong Quitting's not easy It's a little like Hell But the temporary suffering Is worth getting well Don't be embarrassed Afraid or ashamed You have a disease You're not to blame Forever "an addict" But don't let that define you ALWAYS REMEMBER But keep it behind you You can get sober You'll find a reason to stay clean I know it's all true Because that addict is me