That Day Came

Pointless…a strange existence, lost in the panoramic leisure of humanity's walk I am consumed, doomed to non-being, with lingering darkness A pain to wake up to the sound of its heavy breathing over my head And it's agonizing wheezing in sun-drooping times Sometimes tears fall down my face, seeping in the shadows I am unafraid, jeering poor judgements, squeezing the bile into half-living life Saddened by the impact of the blows, The soft kisses being sent my way…only dissolving It burns upon my skin, it's ephemeral floatation above my body I never reach you, that happiness…so close…ever spiraling My focus blurred…my lenses dirtied, damp, drizzling in the salts of wishes Moments of your voice, bouncing off my face Your aromatic wisdom slipping into my eager ears and eyes Past happiness, now remnants of sad, layered present Waiting for that day…surely not long enough… I would have waited more And that day came, when I heard your voice again… I had waited in monomaniac, obsessive daydream My mind sure of the stars within you Faith in you…faith in your shine It wasn't fair, I know, to assume such magic would occur I shouldn't have let you become the purpose of the pain I have mastered Yet that day came. . . Sunshine through the windows, my mind in a thousand murderous places Your voice, your presence, your heart, not so far from mine I could not trust my mouth, so I relied on yours Knowing only silence would remain in the end Like the entire world demanded your presence in that very moment, Your words slipped out faster than I could register They were terrifying in volume, cold as frosted ice To see you so rock-layered indifferent Was the worst pain I had felt since pointless made its way on a page... Though I knew in my heart you cared, I would never let my mind believe The daydreams, once so real, were now nonexistent I was eaten, chewed up, disposed of in a single chomp of Never-Was I would have much rather waited longer… I would have been stronger You disappeared through the doorway, before I could say...Thank You And from there, I fought the stinging tears with my life Doomed with the darkness that I could not let break me I had to wait. I had to wait and make certain no one else was brought down with me Then, when alone…when all beings slept…while you lay in bed slowly drifting, I would wake up to the sound of its heavy breathing over my head Long after sunsets diminished to black And I could say to myself, that day came I could make myself let it go...let you go... And I cried, my small, black companion by my side Soon even precious he would leave me In tearful breakage of death All dreams of you passing on with the one whiskered witness, All faith, dreams...passion...escaping away.... Through my pouring lenses, out my ripped heart... and into the night...