That Day

That Day When the officers came before me that day, I thought I heard it wrong, They removed their caps unto me and told me you were gone. My heart and soul were no more that day, I didn’t understand, how could God take my boy that had yet become a man. At once everything seemed so sudden that day you went away, I had no time to speak but I begged God to let you stay. There was nothing I could do that day, as tears poured down my face, people told me to have faith in God that you were in a better place. My mind was telling me you were gone that day, but heart sang a different song, because how could the God I know make me suffer so long? I never said goodbye that day, but there was nothing I could do, so I’ve held on to your last words to me, which was “mama, I love you Many people came that day to remember your very short life, All I could do was think of the pain and how it cut me like a knife. For I was still your mama, that day God made heaven your home, all I could do was sit and think, that you were too young to b alone I was your mama then and I am still your mama today, and although 21 years have gone by, the pain won’t go away. I missed you from that day on and I miss you now, I have somehow survived the hell of losing you, and I really don’t know how. That day is long gone, and God tells me you aren’t alone, and that you are old enough to be there on your very own. Your mama is a lot older this day and all I can think is this, the days are numbered fewfor when I can hug you and give you a kiss. Just hold on for me tightly, for when God takes me home, I will finally be at peace and neither of us will be alone. Love, Mom