Terrified

I’ve been having nightmares every night. They seem so real and It’s extremely hot and I feel trapped and I can't breathe. But each time my torcher ends when I hear bells and alarms ringing in the distance. I’m no longer a rookie this is my se- cond year and love what I do. People often refer to me a as a hero but I’m no hero I’m a coward. I’m terrified of my job and don’t think I can go on like this. I am a firefighter who is spooked by fire. My team went in response to a fire last week, and it was a normal routine. But this in particular fire was out of control. And it had a mind of its own. I froze and I was terrified and my life flashed before my eyes. The only life that I wanted to save was my own. Now does that sound like a hero or a coward? Inspired by a drama series called Station 19 It's a spin off from Grey’s Anatomy 7-28-19 Alexis Y.