Tears On My Pillow

What can turn time back, to those unforgettable days. The way I took advantage of your love, when I told you, I will never change. What can put a smile on my face, and erase the guilt that's heavy in my heart, Why did I ignore you as if you didn't matter, how come I didn’t say I was sorry from the start? The reproach I brought to your name, The aches & pain, the suffering, the shame. How could I have been so rebellious, so ignorant and selfish? My pride blinding me, I couldn't see that I was being very foolish And all the time I laughed at you, mocking you as you tried to share the truth with me, However, I turned away, throwing up my hand, without respect, and mindless understanding. I wanted to distance my self from you, telling you to stay away, Giving you trouble, every time day after day, For whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap, Now you’re gone not here with me, and every day I weep. I am troubled, heart broken, filled with agony, Confused, uncertain because of this tragedy. I'd never thought I'd see the day where everything would turn over on me, Now, I am no longer blind, I finally can see. But it's too late and there's no way you can here me say, That I'm sorry for the pain I've caused my evil doing, my heartbreaking ways. Why didn't I listen, why was I so dumb, Why did I let my heart become hardened and num? You were always right I was wrong each time, now I know In addition, I'm paying for it each day I awake, with tears on my pillow.