Summer Worries

Ever since i left things are starting to change. the people here are not around me and i wish i felt the same. i never hear your voice and you hardly ever hear mine another problem would be the difference in our time. After this challenge we have another starting up in fall which will determine if our friendship will stand just as tall. And while i'm gone my other worry is if someone will take my place cause it will be a while till we see each other face to face. Calls are getting rare and emails are getting short. Basically what i'm saying is: here i am all alone no one knows im here, there you are with all your friends you've known for several years. Everything thats going on i'm the last to know and since i'm not there to stop you when you have you're biggest problem and you try to solve it with a knife against your throat. I'm not there to comfort you when you're down and start to cry if no one is there who can understand and help you im not by your side. Don't you see why i worry when i don't hear from you in a day. And every night i cry and for only you i pray. Teddy bears are comforting and we love to hug and hold. But they can't hug us back when our fears start to unfold. And lately you wondered why i'm quiet on the phone cause what i said in this poem is on my mind and i feel alone. And even though this is a sad poem i'll try to end it sweet we've been through alot already but if we seperate god forbid then in heaven we shall meet.