Suicide Notice

How do I justify what I dared to do to you, how do I beg you to forgive me, when I, myself can not forget I know I got off to quickly to not take a bigger hit, but when I begged you that last time, I knew that would be it, I finally gathered all the little pieces of my life and glued it back together, I finally no longer blew from side to side, like leafs in breezy weather, still this haunts me, how do I sleep knowing what I did can no longer seep into the cracks among the floor boards instead I find myself breathless from the tripped wires and split cords of my tangled life is it my fate to die, at the hands of my own knife for if it is I shall say these final words, Amen, for every cut and every gash I would glady say sorry again but even I know when the time has come to let the lines fall and my life unravel before my eyes so I can try to mend what was broken by all the lies So in this last moment I shall shed no tears, just to finally rid you of the pain I left I will plead your name with every last breath,