Stressss

And now, I beat myself up for it...my mind is sky high with doubt and my body feels like a drought...dry with a lack of empathy and indulged in loathe and envy...I-I am upse upset* Forever in your lies debt Don't leave me to die... I am not your pet... I won't take your orders We're not crossing borders Can you feel me when I cry Feel...feel...feel... I fell...fell...fell... You left me without any comforting shoulders In the hole of vibrantless farewells i must endure till the end... In hopelessness and fear of love and hope my mind and heart dwells Around every damned bend My heart bleeding out like a river I feel like messy folders, left in the dusty office of nothingness...you stored me in a dark place I once called my "Heavenly Haven" My memories make me shiver Now, I drown in the tears of shame You hunted me down like game...I was that animal, dead and lame I was busy looking for heaven But it was all the same I'm untamed ...so unleash your inner inspiration and shower it down on me Hell I remain in blinded by you but now i SEE Now I'm drowning once again waiting to be saved in this lonely and deep dark sea While you I left to be ever so free That I've fallen way down...I've been weighed down...agony - the countless drops of despair and dismay -is what I stumble upon...I gave my heart a break...for heaven's sake and I've taken all that I can take...I drown in blasphemy's flames of uncertainty and toil of plenty So on you so sneakingly flee To a certain degree, you tried to set me free...free...from our own captivities...but failure kept pace with you... I hope you can see...see...falling in love is only in fairy tales, you see? You got love affection attention comfort and honesty but you never gave me any Now from your actions you spun this deceitful web the reason I remain evver so blue You outran me with your bottomless cheers and hopes...you lifted yourself up with your accomplishments Like a shadow lost under a tree You got me nowhere and no acheivements I'm a fly, trapped in the web of bewilderment...and you wrapped me in woe-made worthlessness Rapt in rue... Sick of feeling blue You drowned me With your river of tears, you see? You left me there to wither and fade away with nothing more than emptyness and hopelessness On you were left to flee Feeling hollow and doused in dismay...what can I say on a day like today? Did I ever make progress? Why would the memories let me be And on and on, you tell me you want to be free You aren't free because you are spell-bound in your lusts and under the spell of sin Yes on and on* yet* You blinded me by your lies and I thought you were the best but yu only brought stressssSSSSSS