Stolen innocence

I have no one to tell because no one is there, Even if they were I’m too ashamed to share. So although I want to scream and shout, I’ll keep it to myself and I’ll just write it down. Was my mouth moving but no words were coming out? Or did you just ignore the “no” that came from my mouth? Did I not say it enough? Did I not say it loud? Did it make you feel tough? Does it make you feel proud? Why did you force it when you could’ve went without? No means no, it meant you weren’t allowed. All I wanted was to be happy, All I wanted was to be heard. Why am I always made feel so crappy? Is happiness something I just dont deserve? I feel so betrayed but mostly humiliated, Tried to wash away the feeling of being violated. You took advantage of what you should’ve appreciated, I paid the price and I f’ing hate it. I was already healing from things I didn’t deserve, So why did you need to strip me of the last of my self worth? Just when I thought I couldn’t experience any more hurt, You put me through a pain that hurt much worse.