Still Haven'T Forgave Myself

I know I was to blame for the pain you felt I'm ashamed for what I did I never expected you to forgive Because I still haven't forgave myself Let's take a journey back to when I was 17 years old I didn't understand how much pain tears hold We'd been together about a year and half, got together just after my Dad died I didn't feel a loss, as he wasn't there, but you were by my side We started off slow and fell quickly You said you'd do everything to help fix me Depression had me hostage, and I was scared of you Because you gave me love I'd never felt, and I cared for you We ended up arguing about something or other I walked out, went to the pub and started looking at another I went back to hers, and cheated on you with a complete stranger Was it pain?, sadness?, stupidity or anger? Whatever it was, there's no excuse for me cheating I wish I could go back and undo my biggest mistake I wanted to make you happy, but ended up being the reason you were bleeding I can't believe I caused you heartbreak I hope you moved on and found love with another I hope you give them a chance to get to know you For what I did, do not make the next man suffer They may be better than I was at 17, and they may show you I've never cheated since, as I believe in being faithful But 17 year old me was stupid and didn't know better We weren't even on a break like Ross and Rachel If he knew I'd do this, I don't know why Cupid put us together Karma caught me, because I've been cheated on since and I deserved that I've always wished I could take all of the hurt back This was 8 years ago, so I hope you found peace and realize you weren't to blame I know it's years too late, but I'm sincerely sorry for causing you this pain I know I was to blame for the pain you felt I'm ashamed for what I did I never expected you to forgive Because I still haven't forgave myself