Steadfastly Unsure

I remain unsure of how to reliably robustly resonantly resiliently and yet autonomously distinguish between contemplative leisure and contempt provoking laziness. I remain unsure why Eastern metaphysicians, spiritual/natural nondualistic teachers continue to describe ego as not only ignorant of identity's leisurely origins, but also lazy-eye False; And, in a positive corollary, I remain steadfastly unsure Why ego's experience of living Earth is not merely an insufficiently delusional lens but also is taught as an unnecessary laziness of mind illusion Blocking truer natural polypaths and more beautiful polyphonics, octave harmonies of sight and sound, air and water leisurely pace and pleasure's moist outcomes displayed on tables of cooperative/competitive electronic-fractal contents of touch with feeling, physical with metaphysical experience. This confusion, about necessary ego individuality and unnatural EarthMother detachment, not normal segregating experience, insufficient multicultural health to thrive wealthy resilient EarthTribes, Leads to teaching Ego and EcoExperience as entirely False because only partial TrueHealth is a stumbling block for straight white western patriarchal minds dualistic consciousness theoretical awareness capitalistic investments and social-cultural transfers through win/lose eco-politically privileged distorted education systems not provoking deeply nutritious and widely nurturing polycultural design and outcome education for Beautiful Truths artistic sciences theoretical/experiential musecological metric systems Of LeftBrain dominant entitled EarthDwellers as autonomous real estate owners experiencing some measure of white patriarchal fundamental dualistic success in sacred eco-health v. secular ego-wealth win/lose propaganda wars Where ego identity is necessary to secularly survive but hardly sufficient to spiritually thrive ecosystemic resilience And experiencing Earth's healthy climates is not only naturally True leisurely ego-wealth but also more than pleasantly lazy spiritual Beauty Power for both nondualistic reliably unsure hemispheres to declare egos and Earth health and pathology phenomena False feels unnaturally lazy and unspiritually rushed, Like rightbrain expansive East-West dialogical communion Wisdom being compressed into True or False leftbrain dominant soundbites.