Stagnant Water

I feel yet I don't feel I crave but I don't crave I desire yet I don't desire I know but I don't know I am getting ready to start the show But there are too many blood suckers running around watching my door I didn't sleep all night I had to put up a spiritual fight The devil rise up at midnight feeding the dead and spilling stinking smell everywhere I sat in the chair thinking And I could feel my heart beating and my Spirit weeping I desperately want to go away from here but my pocket is empty and bear I have so much to share But there is too much meanness everywhere draining my Spiritual energy making me feel unhappy I have put up with this for so long Its time to sing a new song My heart is longing to go there but it is thousand of miles from here I ventured out door and see a big white man in a big white truck driving around the curb and looking at my door I thought he was coming to this house so I went under the tree to admire the falling leaves The tall white man got out of his truck it appeared as if he was stuck He inquired about the address But there was no Alex or Alexandria living here The person he was looking for perhaps resides on the other side I went in my truck and drove up the street Then grab my bicycle and speed downed the road It was a strange afternoon with leaves blowing around the street anxiety cruised aimlessly around and I am getting ready to enter a new phase As I entered the path leading to the park the phrase "stagnant water speaks out" I continued along the track and the line spoken by Michelangelo in the film Agony and the Ecstasy bellows "If the wine is sour throw it out" I finally reached my favorite spot and climbed on top of the seated rock and found a comfortable spot to kneel and pray I felt something strong and it was the power of the holy one I could not contain the welled up tears that had me bound over the years My tears flow on the rock and trickle down the flowing stream giving way to my heart felt dream thus treating me with kindness. Everything was awfully quiet And the screaming bird that antagonized all Summer was murdered and its carcass was thrown at the foot of the tree underneath my window The ants mutilated its body and dragged it bit by bit into the cemetery The naked trees catapulted in air saluting the maker on high Anxiety mounts and the diamond is stuck into my sordid throat I stood on top of the rock and look deeply inside the sun and tried desperately around to end this final chapter Everything around me was so grey I had to look the other way Dry bushes scattered around and the grass beaten to the ground I saw profound changes as nature dance merrily in the street and takes it course throughout the ages I wish if I knew what it was about It took some time to figure it out And just when I was about to doubt a bright light shone over the stream Pulling me off the rock and forced me to take stock I crossed the stream and went on the other side with the holy bible by my side Three white flowery trees stood among the dry trees presented something hopeful to me There they were standing proudly All three stood side by side deeply rooted in the ground and supporting each other with intense energy Two short trees waving their hands and the taller tree protecting the shorter ones This symbolism was so strong So I blessed them with my spiritual hands And in due time they will all conquer the land.