Stages of Life - Begin With Thinking - Part 2

....Continuation of Part 2... Stages of life - Part 2 Begin with thinking...! Vagaries of family continuously keeps me tied to prejudices, as I set out on that way - in the company of "forever novices". By the time my life halves, in a daze, I stare at my legacy, partly fulfilled and unfulfilled - at the altar of spiritual bankruptcy! Elusive 'contentment' still elusive, even in it's basic meaning; a tiny spark, that calling - props a thought, a beautiful weaning! There begins the search, a seed of thought, so subtle, yet so fecund, rendering all else irrelevant and to steer one to this bodily end. Three quarters in time drifts, with 'to be' and 'not to be'! Search between nadir and zenith - resultant 'may be' and 'may not be'. Earthly age, inherent reluctance and there the last fourth in the horizon; I sum up my assumed responsibilities in blood and societal glisten. Nurse favours and blessings bestowed on oneself to evolve, with benign thoughts and acts, many a crisis do resolve! Continue in contemplative thinking, all the way as a farer; quintessential to practice and to evade all quagmire! Pronounced loneliness, favours spare time to look inward! Dawns - "I the doodle-stick", no-more, no-less, in this universal spread! Beckons the calling back, intuitive reckoning, to the elementary five; with or without being aware to ease this bee off this earthly hive! Will I ever look all around - the sky, the moon and the stars, and be aware of the connection, beyond blood and skin in wars! Revelling in that lonesomeness and bliss, each one alone; yet, a continuum of the wholesome one - conclusion forgone!