Spiritual Challenges, Naturally

I have questions about spiritual problems with natural causes. These questions themselves assume a metaphorical double-bind co-passion in-between Left with Right hemispheres in Nature with Spirit bilateral dialogue Informed, I hope, by win/win historic experiential roots: What has "nature v spirit" tension meant in my life? What have been my win/win win/lose lose/lose experiences with natural Earth? How has my relationship with nature been a solitary and/or communal experience? What are my poems, music, choreography, photographs, scripture about nature that feel meaningful? How do these communications separate humanity from nature and/or include human beings becoming compassioned within nature? In my learned theology ecology, are we spirits or saints or souls or divinely inspired supernatural creatures creations, wanting to be raptured away from natural Earth? Is Earth both an exterior natural and interior spiritual potential integral Paradise, an EarthTribally cooperative Garden, growing both spirit nurturing healthy truth and nature healing wealthy beauty, democratic health/wealth trust, secular/sacred energy synergetically balancing democracy? Do I sometimes feel hopeless, and do I long to be able to feel warmth, welcome, and belonging from Earth HerSelf? Am I often confused and bewildered? Do I wish I remembered or knew what eco/theo-logically harmonic clarity might feel like? Do I feel a distrust so deep that I would need a win/win trust transplant, a replanting revolution, in order to ever feel faith in anything again; including my own ego/eco-refining identity? Do I need acknowledgement of my original mortal life-line, from win/lose natural beginnings ending in inevitable loseEgo and loseEarth? Was mortal self-identity like a spirit v nature bomb that destroyed my original win/win promise born of Earth and all of win/win rapturous humanity in each timeless moment of human nature's spirited experience? Do I need absolute guarantees of win/win protection, compassioning simplicity, and restorative peace reweaving short-term through long-term ease? After engaging this list of self-medications, does climate resonance, internally spiritual and externally natural, feel lose/lose further apart or win/win more cooperatively ego/eco-therapeutic?