Soul's Loophole 2

I just wish i could hear your voice I wish i knew on what you’d now be making a choice To be a part of your conversation That would last me a lifetime Its scary how much you mean to me… In my fantasy Like the emotions are even past Heaven And the only time we’ve been apart Is getting through those biblical layers of seven You understand every word Patience like no other Presence never wavering For a soul like mine, the ultimate shelter I feel like i need to forgive you for something Maybe thats why forgiving people while im here is so annoying Because all i really want to focus on Is fixing whats wrong between me and you Somehow even in my fantasy… That feels so true I dont fit in here Why am i here Why am i placed where i have no where else to go? Somehow i feel like meeting you Will answer every single question, ill finally know My moods are back to so all over the place Back to highschool days, my crazy phase And i’ve come too far for this to happen And i dont know how to make it stop My kids deserve a more normal mother Yet they still look at me with such delight For how will they look at me, truly, when they are older? Its quite a motherhood fright.