Soon Or Later: a Day In the Life of Obedience

Steady being obedient so many things you cant do, constantly trying to do the right thing sometimes gets over on you. life being given to you on a silver platter, soon enough things important start not to matter.blinded by so many yes' and no's one is sure to soon or later go with the flow. so many decisions and so many truths to be told thinking you're "perfect" soon gets old. conscious stalking you always on your mind , that long rope of trust, and honesty and goodness is soon to unwind . growing up as a child, raised through god's word you are surely soon or later by trial to move backwards. you know right from wrong and lately you've been choosing wrong but your hearts desire for goodness has always been strong .you ask "lord where to go now'', you need some help, but you caused the pain all by yourself. but you know he's a forgiving one so you ask 'give me this chance, just this once". you need spiritual help to get back on your feet, but how when you're in so much heat. steady being obedient so many right things to do but who exactly is the blame, after all it is you who had to chose .not asking for self pity, cause you know you did wrong, just asking for recovery and to come back two times strong. Do not blame anyone you've always been catered but with a hearts desire for goodness you're prone to do right,right? soon or later