songbird

Droplets fall at the existence of my anxiety Around every corner I’m drowning A new wave crashing over me I feel the warmth of a gentle hand “Its ok my little songbird” I feel the anger taking over me Flashing of rage that have control of me I hit the wall but it hits back Blood and tears trickle as I bite my lip I feel the presence of a kind soul “Its ok my little songbird” The friday night lights but something doesn’t feel right Mother runs Father stays No gentle hand no kind soul The sirens ring out I feel like I’m choking They take you away I sit in the dark In the void of nothing No gentle hand no kind soul The birds sing their morning song But they sing in a melancholy tone They feel the absence as much as me They know somethings missing The worlds off key The light haze covers the room I stand in shock Hovering over you I turn in fear My face gets hot They make me look I cannot I will not The gentle drizzle falls from the sky The world seems to stop As we say goodbye I walk away in complete silence “It's ok little songbird” No It’s not the same They say it to me thinking it would help It just reminds of the void No gentle hand no kind soul The bright lights hit my face I smile as I hear the crowd cheer my name My dream was to make you proud But when I sing I remember you’re not around What happened to you will always stay You’re here for me It will all be ok As I stand and feel the heat from above It reminds me that I’m missing your love It screams that no matter what I can’t outrace the feeling of death I wait for you to say What you always did to make me feel safe But you’re not there The silence is so prominent I can almost hear it It screams telling my story No gentle hand No kind soul Just a lonely little songbird