So Suddenly

I only wish that I had known You'd take an early flight to the moon; that you would die so soon. I never imagined not growing old together nor even remotely that you would be gone so suddenly. I know that our heavenly Father knows best when to take you to your eternal rest. And I also know that He understands that right now I am devastated, frustrated, and empty inside. While you were fighting for your life, I went upstairs and had a deep alone moment with our Father. I asked him 'If he would do this for me'- that is, spare your life. I said it really loud, but he remained silent. I knew he said "No" when you passed on. I feel so weak and alone without you, and I am hurting now because you are gone. There were things I would have said, And other things I would not have said. Our times together would have been fuller and richer. More hugs and 'I love you', more 'get-togethers' and lots of 'hang-outs' too. There would have been more smiles and laughter. And our conversations would have been more open and revealing. Moreover, both my head and heart are at a loss. and I feel so numb and lost. I don't pretend to know the many 'whys' of life and death, nor the many questions that never get answered, but I'll remember forever the joys and happiness we shared. AND IN TIME, GOD'S TIME, I'LL FIND MY WAY AHEAD AND MOVE ON.