So Much To Say

For my daughter, forever 14, forever loved, never forgotten. 4/16/2008 - 9/11/2022 I find myself not breathing, I can’t catch my breath I can’t accept your gone and won’t accept your death Nothing can fill the hole left in my heart How can you be so close, but we are now forever physically apart I can’t imagine another day with the loss of you I can’t deal with the grief; I can’t stomach the new No one can say anything to make me feel better What I resort to now is writing you daily letters New normal I shun because, this can’t be it The eternal flame for you, the wick stays lit I can’t stomach the pain, the unbearable sorrow I won’t accept your death, I still think you’ll be back tomorrow Now I talk to a box full of your ashes Hoping you’d come out and wipe tears dripping from my lashes I hold onto the memories all of them so beautiful and bright I am now in the dark and you are in the forever light My beautiful daughter is now dancing in the sky When your loved ones back here are still wondering why I am jealous of the angels who have you in their presence Please give me the strength to get through this in your absence I love you forever daughter, I will get up every day To tell the world about you because there is so much to say