So Magical

is this the magic of Christmas? weighing yourself before the festivities begin eyes on every calorie you consume smelling the food you know you’ll never eat it’s a vicious cycle, one i’ll never beat but i’ll beat myself up another day of depression counting down the days ‘till Christmas day has turned to counting the calories every day so magical! all i want for christmas is to get the stupid thoughts out of my mind get the scars off of my arms to find some joy in being alive instead i'm sat here, alone in my room. crying meaningless tears that make me feel like a fool thinking about how many days i have left feeling this low while my brother thinks about getting presents and snow ‘tis the season to hide in baggy clothes the time to wear a fake smile just so nobody knows about the pain in your stomach, the pain in your bones so merry christmas everyone, just leave me alone