So All Alone

Surrounded by family and friends Ed felt empty, so all alone Everyone talking, joking, laughing he, staring blankly at his phone Why's it fun for them to get together Ed wondered, tearing at his skin The faces, the conversation, always the same and he, faking a deep sleep, to hide his shame When everyone had gone, there Ed lay on the couch, anxiety unallayed Another crisis marked, yet another day ~ How much longer could he go on this way