Smiling Tears

Everyday the sun shines With a new glimpse of hope that within myself, I hope shall rise... Standing still on my own when everyone else is moving on including this wide world and I do not know what to do or even where to go.. Some day, i set a goal and move towards and others, I just wander around sometimes I fall, sometimes I reach but it does not matter because everyday I live, every moment I breathe, there is something new that life shall always teach.. But I guess I need the will, to find the way because each day I am just driven away from my own defined self.. I let people down, as I surprise others, I break good things, and hold to just what bothers and at the end, there is no one to blame because there is a new thing that I shall gain.. Could be surrounded by a lot, but special one is missing, could have lots of smiles around but something inside is so depressing.. It pulls me so much into my shell that it makes me want so much to yell But no one can hear me still.... Smiling tears filling my eyes, lots of fears are fold inside and I just wish to get back in time, when life was bright.. Or even..to find the strength that shall drive me on, in this mess and lead me to my self expressed to the shore of happiness, to the shore of pleasant and success.. Yet within me,. I am still confused and lost But for real.. I know I am still blessed....