Smile Empty Soul

I hide alone inside this empty soul. So alone in this place so dark and cold. Waiting for you to bring me out, hiding the pain inside fighting the shadowing doubt. Wondering when I'll see the light, as the clouds roll over taking it out of sight. Finally I see your face, eyes shining bright, so full of grace. The one light of hope brightening my day, the one and only reason I have to stay. So many things that I want to say, so many things standing in my way. Praying in my morning, hoping in my night, telling myself it would be all right. Understanding now I waited too long, what I don't understand is where I went wrong. Wishing that somehow you could be mine, wondering how long I can wait this time. I care so much about you, I know you like me too, what I don't know for sure is what I'm gonna do. I told you I'd wait, I didn't know what else to say, telling myself it can't stay this way. The more I think about you, the more I realize how much I really like you. I can't believe I let you slip away, I'm left here standing alone on this day. You may be gone but the damage stay, but still I do not regret feeling this way. A week has passed and I am caught at a crossroad, my feelings a mix of happiness with hope, and guilt with sorrow for the pain that you hold. It finally appears my prayers are starting to be answered, the only thought that doesn't leave me shattered. I feel so confused, I feel great relief to hear this news, yet also a sense of grief for your pain that ensues. I hide behind this smile, so many words still untold, smiling talking to you, your light fills this empty soul.