Silent Page

Silent Heart

Sad, as it maybe, I had to break my OWN heart, 
Too many nights, I sat there all torn apart
A dream girl, 
Sitting under its own corrupted auspices sky 
You the poet, in disguise
Telling white lies about, your love for me
Saying I'm a born from the sky....
A match, a queen, your muse, your everything
I'm no good, I admit this once more, 
Your advice, I forever adorn 

It's time to follow the crying crows and praise what is left
Afraid to listen my rhymes weren't cutting it, 
I release it all!
Your smiles, words, and worn out shoulders
I walked away
Silently--
I acted on
Without a word, in a fetal stage I awake
Tonight you carry a tune for others
A story of a man who stole my soul of sins
A poet, I long forevermore
Always, you will own the only sound that still beats inside
To live alone, in silence, asleep in my own world
I had to let go, 
-Of him, whose name I whisper in darkness
The only thing that remains is the echoes of pouring rain

Too many reasons, writer's block, took full moon
You are a poet, from another lifetime, 
Down in Mandalay, I can no longer ask you to stay
Reading everything about my life, silent and old
Alliterating poems, greeting every dark shadow, normally yours
Many nights I waited, long for the moment of my OWN return
Instead, I found myself alone
Trying to dust off yesterday's verse, yesterday's dirt
Cobweb remains on my page
My pen now sits like a twig
No motion, since the day I decided I am not worthy of the wait
You the poet, who walks my way
I pressured less of me every day
Like Aspen, a forever winter cold! 
Isolated to the world
In your eyes, you wonder why, 
I trace the white smoke standing in your place?

To savor your words, once more 
It's too soon to breathe again. 

I hope you understand, 
How can I continue to love when I don't even love myself?

By:PD
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Barton Avatar
October 17, 2021 at 3:23 AM
I love your poetry PD . Thank you ????
Georgieva Avatar
February 7, 2016 at 3:01 AM
Wow, this write is absolutely amazing, just wonderful.. xxx
Sway Avatar
January 23, 2016 at 8:13 PM
it so beautiful but so sad at the same awesome poem
Viswan Bhatia Avatar
December 26, 2015 at 3:52 AM
what a beautiful pain. you sketched it really well.. a 7
Dietrich Avatar
November 5, 2015 at 3:29 PM
Pd. Tim Ryerson has written a really cool poem dedicated to you. about a yellow rose. I didn't see you had commented, so maybe you don't know. I really liked it!
Dunn Avatar
September 16, 2015 at 9:36 PM
Dear Linda Excellent work of awesome imagery, cheri
M.N.I.W Avatar
August 18, 2015 at 7:54 PM
This is an outstanding poem. I can feel the emotion jump off of the page. Nice
A. Sharma Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 10:39 PM
Congrats on ur awesome poetry n win Linda!
Y. Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 5:23 PM
PD, congratulations on your win:-) Alexis
Callus Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 5:19 PM
Hi Linda! After nearly a year since I read this emotive poem it's nice to be back reading it again! A lot of water has flowed under the bridge since then! ~ Congrats on your fine win. ~ Hugs // paul
Roper Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 10:57 AM
the pen is wonderful but so heartbreaking congratulations on your win Hugs Eve
A  Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 10:43 AM
Sweeter than sweet, when in solitude,, so deep..... SKAT
Inman Avatar
August 11, 2015 at 9:44 AM
Oh so emotional.
Alltraine Avatar
July 30, 2015 at 1:35 PM
"I had to break my OWN hear" - you got me gripped from this powerful opening! Such talent! xxx
Tadros Avatar
May 27, 2015 at 7:09 AM
The words are really touching..and this last sentence summed it all up. you are so good!
Yvonne Avatar
April 8, 2015 at 2:19 PM
By the way, my goodness you're a great poet!
Yvonne Avatar
April 8, 2015 at 2:18 PM
I love your poetry because it speaks to my silent heart silent on the page!
Mckeon Avatar
March 3, 2015 at 9:02 AM
Wow great piece. I can so relate to some of this
Jacks Avatar
December 31, 2014 at 12:26 PM
A play of the emotions, an inner struggle, and a seldom won battle. Your words speak of what could never be, it is a cause of great reflection for me. I see Truth...
Dietrich Avatar
December 27, 2014 at 10:04 PM
PD, I hope you are feeling much better since when you wrote this poem. IT is amazing how cheery you are today and a very good thing to see!!! Thanks for putting up your winner lists for us to see at last!! Luv, Andrea
Nnoli Avatar
October 4, 2014 at 10:47 AM
SAD BUT BEAUTIFUL , RICHARD
Fraser Avatar
October 2, 2014 at 9:34 AM
Hi Linda, this is a very emotional piece from you, very beautiful, yet very sad, hope this is just a story and your not sitting there with a wounded soul, great write my friend, Blessings, Carl
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October 1, 2014 at 6:09 AM
"It's time I follow the crying crows, and praise what is left",I am not sure why, but that line brought a tear from my eye. It has been a very long time since a poem has made me teary.... wow... this is a beautiful poem... there is so much feeling in it...your gift shines in this one. Though there's a lot of hurt bleeding through, there is power too. This poem moved me... thank you. It's been a while since I have visited your page. I need to come around more often. Always, Laura
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September 28, 2014 at 9:13 AM
The flow is so good it's like I could feel the emotions. GREAT poem!
Morrison Avatar
September 27, 2014 at 9:12 PM
Wow Linda! What a absolutely beautiful piece from start to finish.
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