Should I Try It Again

I head towards my bed, Being very sad, Every Night before i sleep, I ask myself a question "Should I try it again??" When life is full of pain, There is not much to gain?? The diminishing hope inside me restrain, Failing hopes whispers to me "This is all you can?" The innocent mind again runs for love, Some companion who can stop me getting stoved, Please peep inside my suicide note, I have my dreams to fulfill, "Get me out of this" in short! Living can be so painful, I never thought, I am practicing to tie a the final knot, Before I could kick the table, hope inside me wish to live once again, So I hide my note and assuming that there is no pain! Seems like I'm invisible or I'm not being wanted anymore, I cant blame them, may be I'm such a bore, But the life exceptions are closing its door, I wish I could buy some hopes from a store! I wont comfort me with false hope, Cause as the day proceed, the same pain makes me stop, Creating barriers in my path which I cant hop, And then I miss my dear rope! Approaching the rope and my note, Placing my the note on my desk, I stood on a chair with a hanging rope in hand, Whole life flashes as a embrace my dear rope! The dam life flashes, giving me one more hope, Once again I have to drop, I failed to embrace the rope anymore, I quickly run and hide my note. I head towards my bed, Being very sad, Every Night before i sleep, I ask myself a question "Should I try it again??"