Should I Fight

Time is not on my side yesterday I almost died maybe if i had you wouldn't be so mad you keep saying I don't care when I've done nothing but be there you can't see me cry so you never ask why so I don't have to say why I'm feeling bad today but its because of what you said that I'd rather be dead how can you say that you can't take it back the pain is already consuming me but I refuse to let anyone see I put on my mask no one bothers to ask I'm to upset with you to know what I'm suppose to do you say I don't care but you're the one who acts like I'm not there how could you what am I suppose to do I still love you but letting go is what you want to do should I give in give up and let you win or do I try to fight as I cry myself to sleep at night