She Says

She says she pushes me,when really she breaks me She says i’m ungrateful ,when really I bend backwards for people She says i’ve got no future,when really prepare myself She says i’m just a kid,when really I have to act like an adult She says she loves me,when really I doubt it She says to put on a smile,when really I can’t She says I am not broken,when really I am shattered She says I just want attention,when really I need someone to talk to She emits all harsh things in my head I try to push her out,I can’t ,because she overwhelms me She consumes my life with her negative ways I tell her to leave my mind,my soul,my thoughts She says she can’t leave my thoughts People tell me it will get better My thoughts,my mind,my soul , not longer belongs to me I can’t even control myself