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Seven Years Ago Today

Seven years ago, underneath a Colorado Pine, you took your last breath under the falling snow- I can’t comprehend what was really on your mind, what was it that was so hard to let go? I search, yet the answers I cannot find, so, I take a deep breath and go with the flow. Seven years ago, we said our last goodbye, I was so sure you would return home safely- I dropped you off with a tiny tear in my eye, thinking you’d come home to me eventually. Little did I know it was just a big lie, you had bigger plans that didn’t include me. Seven years ago, you chose to die with ease, you had so much pain held deep inside- I always thought that your mania would cease, but instead you chose the worst; suicide. “Come back!” I screamed, “pretty please…” You were only fear and shame personified. So much has happened since you’ve been away, so much joy you have decided to miss- I keep waiting for the one and only day, that we shall meet again and we shall kiss. I don’t know what I’d do or what I’d say, just be grateful to be in heaven’s abyss. It’s been seven years since I last saw you, you wore a brown coat with eyes so blue- That leather bracelet that I wear now too, I knew you coming home was too good to be true. Dedicated to my beautiful sister Karen. She took her life 7 years ago this afternoon. If you've been touched by suicide at you find peace. December 31, 2017