Set Myself Free

I choose to set myself free
Becoming fed up with lies without alibis
that caused me to constantly season 
my pillow with salty tears 
Too many times over the years  I've welcomed
you back into the fold of my arms
hypnotized by your charismatic
charms as you wiped your
feet on my pain
I only had myself to blame
all in the name of what I
thought was love
To me it looked like love
Sounded like love
It was merely a mirage that quickly
faded into the sunset of my
expectations
I held out my hand for
you to accompany me
you stood by and watched
me fall into the epitome
of love without you
I danced inside a 
bubble of denial beside you
blind to the scales proving your 
love for me didn't
equally balance my love for you
You knew l hungered
to be loved and craved your attention
and it was your cruel intention
to keep me full on empty promises
and hydrated with forgiveness
that chased my pride down
my throat running the risk
of causing my own demise
I stop using your excuses to mend 
my fractured heart
Tuning out your destructive
words that burned my ears
No more picking my teeth with your lies
or letting the bitter taste of 
your fermented "I apologize"
rest on my tongue
leaving me punch drunk 
and feeling dumb
Your mistreatment no longer
holds enough weight
to break my brittle bones
I'm learning how to navigate
through this journey
while standing on my own
I am free from being enabled
Once I discovered love was 
no longer being served
I found the nerve and  enough strength to
excused myself  from the dinner table  
©4-24-2020
Copyright © | Year Posted 2020

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