Self-Reflection

I'm moving my ego to the side for Self-reflection My pride gets in the way of me getting help for depression I love hard, but I struggle to show affection I don't expect anyone to understand my Self-reflection I'm far from perfect, But I try to please all I act like I'm invincible, But I got hurt from each fall I made myself numb, but when my feelings came back it felt twice as painful Ever since I escaped hell, I've been trying to find an angel I wish I never self-harmed, tattoos covering the wounds I prefer being alone and listening to Hip-Hop in my room I like drinking, because I always feel more hurt when I'm sober I wish my parents didn't put me on foster care when I was 3,I wish we were closer Growth comes with learning from mistakes I try writing new chapters without turning the page So I have old characters ending up in parts of my new story I tend to focus on my many losses instead of my few glories I had Love for many, but due to being hurt so many times, I don't show it much I believed I had a right to play girls because of my mom not being around when I was growing up The better she looks naked, the worse it will feel when she breaks my heart My mind is in constant Rhyme mode, I can't Escape my art I'm the furthest thing from perfect you will ever meet I'm always trying to give you a better me I stopped trusting, because people say they never leave Where are they now?, Well I lied too, because I said I never bleed I put my ego to the side for Self-reflection My pride gets in the way of me getting help for depression I love hard, but I struggle to show affection I don't expect anyone to understand my Self-reflection