Self Love

Each and everyday i have some pain in me, The pain i cant explain or show, The will power in me gave me the strenght to go on life with the pain after i lost my child , Each night i couldnt sleep with gruesome pain deep in my abdomen, I try to close my eyes and even ask god to heal the pain, I know i am knocked down by a terrible infection that kept me in pain for over a week, I’m just now able to be up and around a bit, I know that an infection at ur abdomen does not sound so threatening, But I was really ill. I have lived very independently for a long time and admit that I’m not comfortable asking for help or complain about the pain, I’m sick, I’m vulnerable, I’m alone? One of the deepest desires of any person is to be loved and cared by others,  We all want to feel like our life and presence in this world matters to someone, The feeling is very painful and hurting especially when you expect a lot from your loved ones, Life can be hard and painful , Sometimes you just need a little support to make your way through it. You can get strength from yourself. Overcome this pain for yourself, Do yourself a favor. You care for yourself so don't hesitate to overcome this pain of yours. It's really difficult situation in life when no one cares for you and no one acknowledging your pain, But sometimes we have to care for ourselves no matter what, Self care is most important thing to deal with pain. Rather than anyone else in life we must ackowledge our feelings and our emotions. You should find ways to release your pain by crying it out, This is what i tell myself when im struggling in pain, Because only you yourself know how much pain you are taking in each and everyday, I do love myself now after all ive been thru, Self care and self love is what that i needed now.