Home » Poems » Yolanda Joy Nicholsen » Self Help

Self Help

We'd awakened to soon reaching. 
for respite keeping PTSD at bay 
while anxiety attacks bicker with 
my Narcolespy my focus remains.
 
steadfast on Traumatic Brain injury 
allowing my cognitive activity to bravely 
send signals to stretch my legs and arms. 
I can feel a traumatic headache approaching. 

but so is the time for my monthly nerve blocks. 
injections twelve shots in my head in all 
granting me sheer relief for thirty days 
after the stream of pain forget me nots

wears off my mind goes back to the injury. 
bruising my brain sullen matter awakens me. 
I am quite shattered within the fight flight. 
mode hunkered down in hidden nooks of sanity. 

racing thoughts I sit up on the bed now. 
in the quiet calm of the night tall egrets 
walk by my window alert a family of fox's. 
nose's pointed at the moon snow birds I suppose.

here just for a season just like my thoughts. 
I chant and wonder if my brain would someday. 
stop no more data to be found in this! 
desperate state I began to write again. 

providing me a kind of self-medication
if you will effortlessly removing my mind 
from negative thoughts a real treasure 
emerge as my alter ego actually becomes.
 
my muse in this finite moment the stars all
line up just so twinkles sending signals sparks. 
waves of chemicals balancing sheer survival 
of my brain hence survival of the mind

Post Comments

Poetrysoup is an environment of encouragement and growth so only provide specific positive comments that indicate what you appreciate about the poem. Negative comments will result your account being banned.