Self-loathing

Deep down inside, I carry this constant self-loathing, It's more than just a passing feeling—it's like a heavy burden I can't shake. Some days, I struggle to eat, going without proper meals, And I avoid looking in the mirror, skipping makeup to avoid facing myself. I seem to ruin every relationship I have, Hurting the people I care about the most in the process. I always find myself craving validation from others, And I hate how clingy and immature I can be at times. I used to think this was a phase, something that would pass with time, But it's only getting worse as days go by. I feel like I'm drowning in my own self-hatred, And I don't know how to break free from this suffocating feeling.