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My search started 24 years ago. I was a little girl. I wasn't looking for my teddy bear. I wasn't in search of a friend, although I could have used one. I wasn't in search of any of life's big mysteries.
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Laying in bed late at night I would hope and pray, I would soon find what I was searching for. Years pass as I fight the anger and all the hours of tears cried. My search has gotten me no where. I am diligent and keep on searching.
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My search is the tricky kind you can't see or feel what I am searching for. You can't hear it or smell it either. I know names and where to go to find them.
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I'm not searching for a person. I'm not looking to change the past. I want to build the future instead.
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I'm searching for the heart and soul of my mother. wishing she would put the bottle down long enough to see. I am still searching for my mothers love of me. My search is not yet complete!

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Date: 5/16/2011 5:04:00 AM
very touching words.. I did not expect the ending to be this cory... so many things in life we are trying to fix and make better .. feel for u my friend... my Mother was so special.. she taught me luv and encouraged my poetry... your lines are so finely written and defined on this journey of searching to make all better and find peace.. thankxx for directing me to this glorious poem luv..
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Date: 5/3/2011 11:53:00 AM
A very touching poem.
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Date: 5/3/2011 7:54:00 AM
Wow, Cory My compliments this is excellent .Deep feelings came out in this one.Way to go. Anne
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Date: 5/3/2011 4:54:00 AM
I enjoyed reading your wonderful poetry this morning Cory. I will be back again soon to read more. May the sun shine down on you and bring great joy to your life now and always. Love, Carol
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Date: 5/2/2011 10:46:00 PM
This is so poignant a write, Cory! The pain behind your lines is not missed. Thanks for sharing and thank you for your kind comments on my poem. Take care. Caroline.
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Date: 5/2/2011 3:03:00 PM
What a lovely way to express gratitude and love of a mother, nice flow of feelings, cory
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