Screaming For Help

Screaming for help but it’s something that’s encased, my tears fall dry, they’re a part of me erased, I speak with my body cause I’m not sure how to say the words, sometimes I wonder if my silence is being heard, Wish my mind had a valve so I could let out the memories, wish that we didn’t have to end & you were more than a friend to me, wish my heart was a muscle as strong as they say but I feel it breaking down & feeling decayed, wish my eyes could cry an ocean & you could swim through my pain, is this really how I feel or is it all in my brain, Suffocated with these thoughts of being alone, I see your number calling but I can’t answer the phone, Loving me lonely, you must be aiming to tear me down, use to wear a smile, now I’m stuck in a frown, you said, you’d never leave me, turns out that was a lie, no, not on the out but I’m dying inside, tears turned to stress, can I let that pour, what hurts the most, is you love me no more, veins slowly on the rise, pain trying to escape, thoughts disappearing like a cloud full of vape, feeling defeated but I can’t accept the loss, memories are like an album that I turn & I toss.