Screaming and Showering

I screamed in the shower for a year. I recall all of the pain and drear. I remember blocking out memories, Of harsh abdominal and back pain, And the gruesome sight that I saw, And how I was all alone and too angry, To call you on the phone, and how You left me in ‘Roe to be with her in ‘Rouge, Your new home, Not knowing that you planted a seed, And that it left and pain that you placed On its mom caused its death. No one I could tell because I was shamed That I didn’t have your last name. The incident was placed at the back of my mind, And not felt again in my heart, But once again 7 years later, I become the narrator, And you deny that this incident, Or this seed could ever belong to you, And I. I wish that he or she would now exist. Now in heaven he or she is showering, With the ultimate daddy.