Sarah

we talked for hours at a time , without even realizing it. sometimes our conversations would be about life , religion and love . a few times , it seemed to be more about laughter and having fun . she is someone i had come , to think the world of . her , three children ...and myself , none . we met online , and quickly became friends . i spent most of my time looking forward to hearing her thoughts and ideas . we called each other , almost daily . i began thinking of her more , as time passed . could she feel the same ? turns out , to a much lesser degree . one thing is for sure , unshared love , is not a victimless crime . i broke a promise to her , almost seemed out of my control . to never bring up my feelings towards her again . to only be a true friend forever . my attraction to her gained strength , every time we talked . however hard i tried , i just could not get myself to pretend . the really bad thing is , the more i chased , the more she felt stalked. i wanted her , because i couldn't have her , she would constantly say . but that simply doesn't make sense . i wanted to be with her long before i knew i couldn't . life has taught me , not to give up so easily . it recently has taught me , just the opposite . try ..... what for ? not only to lose hope , but also a good friend . i miss you , i submit .