'rona
How dare you show up
unannounced
Changing the way I live
my best life
Coming all up and thru here
confining me inside the prison
of my own insanity
I want to break from these walls
and defy everything they
say about you
Ignore the demands your presence
has forced me to follow
I curse the day you arrived because
all I can do from the wee hours of the night
to the early morning dawn is
lie in waiting as I make love to
my own boredom
with no one there to hold me
except my own scared loneliness
For weeks I've waited
watch the clock tick tock in sync with
the palpitations of my heart
where my thoughts of your wrath
create the rhythm my anxiety
dances a jig to
I want to walk out in the sun
smell the aroma of life
and touch a dream
but if I take that risk without
protective armor
I'll be kissed with your
deadly nightmare
I attempt to find ways
to distract my resentment for you
as you adamantly succeed at
keeping me away from those
I desperately need the most
I want to feel the thick of my
man's laughter in my ear
See the smiles of my friends
and family that are locked behind
the gates of masks and bandanas
This can't be life
A new normal you've
introduced to me
that has brought on way
too much confusion
far too many lies and half truths
while slanging more conspiracy theories
than a drug dealer slangs dope
I'm afraid and shook while
my fears are quarantined from
my courage
That "S" I have on my chest
is now susceptible to being
contaminated with a scarlet letter
from a pandemic alphabet
I don't know who I am anymore
I don't remember the last time
I remembered
I'm to busy anticipating trying
to forget
If I pray or wish you away
you'd still be here
proving that death becomes you
but I refuse to let you meet me at
the threshold to become the death of me
4-5-2020
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