Rollercoaster

I know what I want but my courage fails me I run away from myself not wanting to face reality I hide in the shadows hoping everything will fold out slowly It forces me to think constantly My mind never rests, not sure what is really best Should I continue run or should I start having fun Am I denying myself what I really want or am I wanting what I can't Why can't I ever move on Seems as if my heart won These thoughts fill my head, all night as I lay in bed All night as I lay in bed What is the price I must pay When will it be my day How do I know what is really best, my heart is being put to a test I want to figure this out , whatever it may be If a verdict come, will it be me? All these questions in my mind When will they be left behind To finally rid of this commotion And stop this rollercoaster on my emotions