Regrets

I can say I have a regret that cant be undone the day I stopped living my own life and became a character in someone elses tainted world, just a sad litttle role im so sorry i just didnt know.. just an innocent naive girl..I would never be the same ever again..I could only remember who I once had been..I did it for love I did for spite whatever it was it still couldnt make it right.life of struggles filled with so much pain..tears of despair filled my eyes like I never knew and they would remain everyday ..such a fool...i tried many times to turn back...and failed..is this my life now I just didnt want this..but who knew...I died that day...and no one had a clue.. It took my kind heart and made it dark and mean...now my daughters will have to grow up with what this cold world did to me...I regret it but I have learned to adapt in it..doesnt matter what I want my life to be.. this is it..no one chose this but me. stand proud..It was my choice..gotta stay solid. i laugh now.. really thats what matters ..cmon grow up now..so much more out there...trust me.. i once lived it..of course not now.. I stood for something before now i stand for ...nothing..I didnt know..to be in this strange world..where i would lose myself and everything i was meant to be. maybe a nightmare...not so lucky im wide awake..this is me . childish foolish things that make no sense in my mind at all..its waste of a life. i tell myself just sit back now...and just endure...many years left..its not ready to let you go..not even close who do you think you are.. Too much unecessary lies..followed with emotional madness...Was it worth it..not even a little bit...If I could of just been strong...and remembered how much I was a descent person..in my little boring life...I would be on top of the world instead of running from it like a scared little soul, cant even think right..nope.. not no more. its not your mind anymore ..u have no rights stop trying its useless by now .I end this with a little piece of me....Never change yourself to fit in...and be somewhere you are not meant to be...cause trust me...I lived it .. i would rather have my sanity....