Recovery

I think about my life Trying to understand it’s means When I fall asleep, will it untangle in my dreams? I look out of the window And it’s all a bit surreal, I’m not sure what I’m looking for or how it is I feel If I hadn’t lived my life this way, What would I have become? If it hadn’t blocked out all my light, Like clouds around the sun If I hadn’t lived so full of fear Alone with my reflection If I hadn’t masked the real me In fear of the perception If one more drink was never poured The resentment never made Where life just melted pain away And a new path could be Laid Would I have been a better me? With hope still in my heart Life built on strong foundations Not weak and torn apart My days were fast and furious My nights drawn out and wild Yet I still saw every moment Through the wide eye’s of a child If I hadn’t wasted all those tears So many moments lost If I hadn’t felt the hate within At such a heavy cost If I could do it all again and Revisit all the wonder Would I float through it, like a breeze Or would it still pull me under There may never be the answers It may never become clear Why we have these obstacles Or the reason that were here Yet, People leave this world to soon Whatever leaving means? But the ones we love are always there If we look inside our dreams……