Reckoning

I created a monster & was a willing participant only problem is I should have done my due diligence I took a beautiful soul & corrupted your existence you really loved me you were so persistent I took that love & abused the power these words on this page are the equivalent to a spiritual shower I know I was wrong when I was in the act of I knew I was wrong disrespecting this black love you confided in me and told me your darkest fears I would wait until a argument than those words would reappear I was full of myself cup running over it took you to leave for me to become sober now I find myself shaking in my bed alone trying to go cold turkey thinking about all the things I did that would have justified you murking me but I know you don't want me to die you want me to feel the pain of losing you & cry but most of the pain comes from the fact I didn't try & that I can't hold you down when you wanna fly