Rear-Views of Past

i don't cower to death, he had me in his grasp
faltering through the sudor of illness
my heart beating slower than time's hands
like a worthless clock on the wall needing replaced
ashen flesh bore his mark, a kiss against my blueish lips
somehow missing his quarry, while i awaited my wings

he still abides in the dumping ground of memories
with promises broken, love unspoken, and heartless liars
in a dashboard of broken dreams long abandoned
that stalk my existence, awaiting to be restored
to recommence through the pathways of my mind
as more than just unused rusted out frames of thoughts
that only resurface in the outburst of downcast eyes
when the shadows of sorrow grapple my emotions
as he purloins another from existence before me

I don't cower to death, he had me in his grasp
the attrition of time has left me emotionless
unscathed by his touch yet numb beneath his kiss
through past's rear-views as i unwillingly await my wings

October 4, 2019

My Favorite Junkyard poetry contest
Sponsored by Craig Cornish

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Date: 11/5/2019 8:21:00 AM
Congrats on your placement in this contest my friend. Bravo!!!
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/5/2019 12:02:00 PM
Thank you so much my friend... hugs :)
Date: 11/3/2019 7:51:00 AM
An always perceptive view of life and death from your beautiful mind Sandy. I pray you won't get your wings for a very long time.
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/3/2019 8:30:00 AM
Thank you so much Craig....your contests always speak to me... thanks for hosting another wonderful theme...for your kids words, and for the win.... hugs :)
Date: 11/2/2019 10:09:00 PM
Hi Sandra, congratulations on your beautifully written, powerfully descriptive poem. It reaches into a place of deeply experienced emotions.
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/2/2019 10:25:00 PM
Thank you so much Sam...yeah my emotions like to run around on my pages often :) hugs
Date: 11/2/2019 9:11:00 PM
Wonderfully written! Love it. Lonna
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/2/2019 9:15:00 PM
Thank you so much Lonna :) hugs
Date: 11/2/2019 8:22:00 PM
congratulations Sandra on your win, a portal one never wants to cross into...well done dear poet
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/2/2019 9:15:00 PM
Thank you so much Frederic...been on the doorstep a few times...luckily stayed on this side of it... hugs
Date: 11/2/2019 7:52:00 PM
Congratulations on your win, Sandra, in My Favorite Junkyard a beautiful poem. Hugs Eve
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/2/2019 9:14:00 PM
thank you so very much Eve...hugs :)
Date: 11/2/2019 4:02:00 PM
So deep and metaphorical, everything I love in a poem. Congrats on your well deserved win sweet Sandy.. x:)-luloo
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Sandra Adams
Date: 11/2/2019 4:15:00 PM
Thank you so much my dear friend...i had no idea the winner's list was up...heading there now... hugs :)
Date: 10/4/2019 11:36:00 PM
A very deep write, Sandra... you will have those wings one day ~ I am so happy for the delay!! <3
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/5/2019 7:52:00 AM
Thank you my friend....i am happy for the delay too and count my blessings often, enjoying every second of nature and all life has to offer :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 10:18:00 PM
This is quite beautiful and sad, too. I hate being sick and know you must have had a bad illness to have written this. God bless you with many wonderful days - with love and prayers, Gina
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Date: 10/5/2019 7:51:00 AM
I was on death's doorstep, but the Lord wasn't ready for me at the time...God Bless my friend :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 6:13:00 PM
This is masterfully executed poetry, the likes of which are, quite beyond my ability to fathom. How artfully you have chosen your words and arranged them as a master chef would combine the ingredients of a prize winning recipe. I’m a bit in awe.
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/4/2019 8:00:00 PM
Thank you Mark ... my muse sometimes pulls from the deepest deaths just the deepest depth and give me just the right ingredients. Other times she pens simple thoughts :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 2:17:00 PM
the attrition of time has left me emotionless.... Powerful! Ann
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/4/2019 5:12:00 PM
Thank you my friend :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 12:53:00 PM
A rough ride my friend through dumping ground of memories..promises broken..heartless lies..you know how to give voice to sorrow and empower words to deliver a blow--so well written, as always, Sandy.
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Date: 10/4/2019 2:11:00 PM
Thank you so much my friend ... I was trying to think of something for the junkyard contest but my mind went deep instead of favorite nicer memories. Oh well. I will have to try again later :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 12:40:00 PM
- Grief is often in the past and casts shadows into the future, Sandra - Open your wings, don't let time fly for you - A deeply touching poem, my friend :) - hugs //Anne-Lise :)
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/4/2019 2:10:00 PM
Thank you Anne-Lise, I enjoy every minute of my life especially because I have watched so many fall so young ... we never know when the end will arrive :) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 12:36:00 PM
Wow Sandy a powerful write about a subject no one wants to think about, I too was at deaths door 7 years ago complete cardiac arrest, enjoy every moment that's the best way. loved the write!
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/4/2019 12:40:00 PM
Thanks John. Glad he left go of you too. I do enjoy every minute because I know how precious life is. Mine was a blood clot to the heart only it took them 8 months to figure it out I was on heavy duty meds that saved my life. I was in my early 40’s at the time, and count my blessings daily ) hugs
Date: 10/4/2019 12:20:00 PM
Many fear this arrival, hiding from life, shivering in a corner behind locked doors, the outside a worried world away. I love the strength and the creativity in this piece Sandy. Death is not to fear because it will arrive eventually regardless. Enjoy each day as if it were your last, live life to the fullest and tell death...sorry, wrong number.
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Sandra Adams
Date: 10/4/2019 12:43:00 PM
Thanks Chris I was on his doorstep... yet spared. I know It’s all part of life and live as if each day is my last. I don’t fear it :) hugs
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