Realization of a Lonely One

Nobody knows the grief in me Nobody knows the misery I feel Loneliness feels to be eternally destined for me Where is that lady for me? But I guess I’m being a bit over zealous cause I’m only 18 But being in love with being in love makes it difficult to wait patiently but I haven’t truly waited cause I’ve searched unthinkingly So I guess it’s time to stop because I’m looking where it seems not to exist and all just like and mistake infatuation for love It’s said you don’t appreciate what you have until it’s gone So am I divinely appreciative of this because I’ve obviously yet to experience this mental, emotional, physical, and most of all spiritual intimacy I so long for Like an orphan for the love of their birth mother Maybe it’s not a divinity personified appreciation I think the saying is wrong Or not so much wrong as it is incomplete Yes it’s true when something is lost it is truly appreciated But and seen so much and not experienced it is appreciated beyond means So all that hear this pray Cause if you’re going through what I’m going through you can only rely on God to truly guide you And please pray for me because I’m praying for you Cause those of us who put ourselves in this land of loneliness need it And I thank you Lord for giving me these words. Helping this lonely one to stop searching for what is not meant to found but shall come to me when it is suppose to If it is suppose to With saying this I am gaining the virtue of patience Waiting for love to make its appointment with Me