Reaching For Reasons

Reaching For Reasons Reaching for reasons to go on Living my life as I do Nothing I say makes a difference Need to break away from you Searching my heart for some guidance Nothing is helping me though I meet a wall of resistance Really i might as well go Running around in big circles Over the same ground again Trying so hard to do what's right Feeling my own hurt and pain So sad that love doesn't live here Shouting is breaking me down Killing me slowly from inside Changing my smile to a frown Tears are my only solution To shut you up when you start Falling in tracks down my face now Burning deep holes in my heart My mind is in total turmoil Staying is all I can do There is nowhere I can go To get away now from you Trying to look to the future Knowing this will stop one day Wishing and hoping it's soon Don't want to go on this way Closing my mind to hurt and pain Breathing real deep to stay calm Feeling my heart beating loudly Wanting an end to this harm Locking down all my emotions Clearing the pain from my heart Shaking from all the frustration Knowing for sure we must part Closing my eyes really tight now Wishing I could stop this pain Go back and do it all different Start it all over again How'd we lose track of the magic All the good things that we shared What we have now is heartache So long since i felt you cared Reaching for reasons to go on Living my life as I do Nothing I say makes a difference Need to break away from you Jane Shields (C)