Razor Blades

Razor Blades I tried and i promised that i would do it no more but the pain brings tears right through that steel door i threw away all the razor blades but somehow i still found things to use today i sit and i look at pictures from another time i cry cause it hurts he use to be mine inside my body my soul still bleeds all i want is to be free the pain that comes over floods my senses the blood dripping down my white skin seems so senseless i say that i don't that i stopped so long ago but in the moment of loneliness i go i do what i vowed i would never again if only so i can feel something for a split second i tear at my chest for my heart throbs in pain i cry in secret so no one sees my shame the addiction that pulls at my body with in the need to feel something if only i could stop if only i could see but i still think that life would be better without me no one see's the hidden scars no one see's me behind those bars no one see's all the pain because its all hidden behind a twisted smile on my face not a soul hears my cries no one understands how every day i die sometimes i just need out to release myself do you know what its like to be looked at in strife to be cast out with blades because you cut everyday because your different you have to play a game do you know what its like can you feel my shame??