Rabbit Hole

My heart is still beating a steady rhythm. Even when my body feels dead, empty. I’m alive. I’m dead. I’m falling apart, With ten thousand voices screwing with my head. Voice #1: Is Kyle really worth all this pain? Voice #2: Magician…Poof...Disappearing Act… Voice #3: I love him too much to move on… Voice #4: Why did he leave me? Voice #4: Is he coming back? Voice #5: Is he O.K? Voice #6: What…..do….I….do? All this worry, He caused me. Did he even think about me? Voice #21: If he comes back, I’m gonna… Voice #37: ‘If’….everything now is an ‘if’. Great. I’m officially going crazy. Come with me down the rabbit hole. Selene the Queen of Hearts. Already wants my head cut off. And Kyle the Cheshire Cat. Knows exactly how to disappear. The worst thing, Is that I get why he left. I understand him well enough to know, Why he had to leave. Leave me and San Francisco. That doesn’t make it O.K. Doesn’t make it stop hurting. I wish I didn’t understand, Because then I could blame everything on him. Voice #113: Why can’t I move on…? Paige Posadziejewski 10/26/15 Sponsor: Broken Wings