Questions

Why is it that I feel this everlasting pain And that there is no hope in this world Why is it that I have so much to gain But yet I can’t seem to get a grip on it Why do I feel this deep feeling of emptiness Ever drowning in it grasps of evil and sorrow I can’t seem to move on I can’t seem to let go Feelings that come and go Then I think there gone for good But they always seem to break through and show Victims of my suffocating words of demise How can I shut someone down with hate And yet I give people advice It’s not there fault But why do I make them pay the price Why is this devil playing with my head, heart, soul, my existence I’m a slave to the black bitter darkness And it always over powers my resistance Why do I hurt the ones I love I hate to feel this devastation Why do they still love me I don’t deserve it Yet I still receive it without hesitation What have I turned into I don’t have a clue Looking at my reflection And I don’t know what to do Why am I still alive After all the bruises, scars, and burns I have endured On this hell ride of a journey called life I just want to be normal I just want to be happy I want to feel flawless And feel that victory over this evil is mine to claim and no more to blame